Bye to my Month... Welcome your Month...

Sad to say, today don't have a proper sale day as i don't know what they have updated.
In the morning, i opened shop but after awhile it hang and then just DC.
All should know me that i would make full use of a 30D business pass.
So i will vending everyday except for maintenance day.

Finally finished my GA's outline of what i measured for the past week...
... before leaving the office.
It was quite tedious as i found out many thing not in position haha*
i have to shift here and there hmm... worst still some is totally out of position..

Back home to play some games, lol what else i can play...
i prefer to stick to one game or at most two.
Just to keep me entertain and to relax.
Have fun.
Smile.
Sleep.
(End of February)

God can you hear me?

Haiz...back to office, 1st sentence that went into my mind was...
"Going to face the four walls again, is god playing a prank on me?"

My mind is so peaceful from the time i'm awake till asleep.
Everything seems so calm, and thats where i feel something is missing...
...like a jigsaw puzzle with a missing piece.
All the while, i believe that i'm used to quietness but then it isn't.
Working indeed ocuppied my time but it doesn't really fill my heart.
Playing game ocuppied my time as well as entertained...
... but still doesn't really fill my heart.

Overall, i don't wish to think so much about it.
But even dreams do remind me ... what to do...
Rest early... so early... zzZ.

Cabal Online

Wow, a new game coming?
Actually this game had started in China, Europe, Taiwan and Korea.
Now is coming to Malaysia where they are still making and updating.
Cabal Online sound like Campbell abalone Lai ...lol*


This is the one of the image i got from there and i edit the words to it hehe*
i decided to use the character Blader, is so cool with double blade.
As i preview, all the characters skill in the video~ all are so cool.
Blader is offensive with agility which looks like a ninja ^^
About the same like ranonline where having party...
Multiple quests, crafting weapons/items and exploring many maps...


Finally i updated some blogs as i think im too far behind haha~
Continue with my work and soon its time to go home =D

Today ranonline give no warning, suddenly pop out a maintenance =_=
Hmm... i can see more lag after the update as before was so smooth.
Anyway i just open shop again and relax watching 9 pm show.
Are you watching too? Quite bo liao but funny.
im still having sleepy curse every after 12am haha*
*Fallen Asleep*

Great Day Ahead ?

i dreamt of you again, what's going on?
i still remember that you were hitting me lol*
Erm, for what reason... i couldn't remember.

Is human mind complicated?
Or is the human heart complicated? Or both?
Most people are making things complicated...
... where they don't even realise it.
im just a simple guy, don't mix the past, present and future together...

Just played ranonline for the day?
Not really because i opened shop and went to watch DVD.
Stay cool and smile.

Finally... finally...

Just a day of leveling? ... Or vending?
They thought i always AFK in market.
At weekdays morning till evening, im AFK.
After that, i be online but watching screen only lol*
At weekends, i will be online whole day~ if AFK means, im using another ID

i waited from morning till evening ...
Finally got space for me haha*
But not meaning i waited like a rock just for their call.
i played my other ID lol~ at the same time checking my shop.
Shop doing well, level still at a alright pace.
Around evening time, one of the member in guild call out~ who want party at CP?
I reply immediately haha, as my targeted place is at CP.
But only for few hours...
Actually i wanted to find a party at CP from guild because...
... most guild leveling will be playing for long hours.
And i can use my 7 hour neckless but then is ok if i didn't use too.
Double EXP event will comes oftenly so doesn't matter.
Anyway im glad i could play for awhile lol*
Finally... its time to rest...

i never have a good early rest since 2003...

it's always great on Fridays, dont' ask me why ~ lol*
Maybe because can relax for the next two days.. so i felt better haha.

Finished everything for today and yes ~ time to go back office.
Updating my files and arrange in order~ if not, i will get mess up haha*

Once i reached home, its same old thing again.
Ranonline shop haha~ anyway i have business card for 30 days so...
... make full use of it.
Anyway i will be watching TV or listening to music.
i wanted to rest very early tonight but in the end... i slept at late night again...
(-________-) sigh*

Argh...

...back to shipyard lol*
Thinking of going that place again... so bored but do i have a choice?
To work and to learn at the same time is tiring, but life is like this.
This few days, the weather was hot~ hope you had enough plenty of water.
My skin became darker as almost whole day standing under the hot sun.
But at times if can, i try to hide whenever i can haha*
Once we finished for our scope for the day and went back to office.
Packing up everything i need in office and went home.

And it goes again...Ranonline shop haha~
i went to have a bath and my dinner while 9pm show.
Hmm... don't know why, i felt so empty.
What do i live for, as i asked myself.
Just for three meals?
For fame & reputation?
For love & romance?
For family & myself?
For friends & nature surroundings?
Or everything?
im so tired, good night...

Trying to enjoy for the day...

Another holiday, seems meaningless...
But im glad because its Ranonline time !!!
Lol, im still on gaming...

But its my only entertainment and to make my mind filled.
How i wish i lost my memory...
Everything can be reset/restart, so i won't be miserable right now.
Maybe most people will say, serve you good~
Some will say ... easy mah~ forget and restart.
I don't how does others think, some can do it but some can't.
Some can remember you for life, but some can't.
i am the some who can't...

oh well, at the same time im watching DVD~
Another good show of romance haha*
Not much happenings for the day, just ranonline.
Sit back, relax and enjoy...

Happy Birthday to me !

Well... today is still a holiday.
A day of relax? ... i think is another day of boredness haha*

A wish from you means millions of wishes to me.
i hope, i wish ... to see it, but sad to say is ...

A day that i think of that day that...
... i brought you a pinkish cake which was my first time.
No regret, as i smiled and felt great at that moment.

Just another day .... is over.
Goodbye my birthday.
See you next year.

No ending sale ...

2nd day of CNY... went to wai po house.
Same as just say a few word, take hong bao and watch TV.
Till 5+pm and went home as nothing to do there... so boring =_=

At home, at least still can listen to my music, play my game...
... watch movies and do some blog haha~
Sales still doing fine. im waiting for the Xmas package box to drop price.
Will it happens? Anyway im not in the hurry to buy now...
Just wait and see haha~ my inventory bag also too full...
Too much to sell liao as i intake too much items hehe.
Ready to launch stone sale after my books are mostly sold.
Timing is always critical to sell things...
... sometime it worth alot where there is really no one selling it.
When it becomes a common item, the price is so cheap till like free.
Anyway don't get stuck with some item, so must open my eye wide haha*
Just take note and have fun lol~

Coat & Pant [+7]

1st day of CNY ... My family and i went to ah ma place.
Just chit chat around and soon they played mahjong as we watched TV.
lol... around 3pm i went home with my sister.


Back to MY ran hehe~ and took a screenshot with CCP haha*
Actually that coat [+7] can't see clearly as compare to the pant [+7]
Look pro but actually not, and with my jiuhun blade ICE =D
i had completed my collection of jiuhun blade...
Next will be kitchen knife liao haha ^^
Quite bo liao as i know but just purely fun like collecting treasures.

Day passes fast, its February already ...
Most importantly, stay cool and be happy ^^

LemonDemon in action lol*

A short leveling of my fighter... i call him Lemon Demon hehe...


Don't know what nick to put as CP said, lai demon dance skill book...
i think of demon word plus something else haha~
SO i tried a few but was used by other and somehow i think of this...
LEMON DEMON which rhythm hehe~
Have a nice day to all ~
Have a pleasant night to all ~

Ready for CNY?

Yes, its Friday !!
And follow by a long weekend of CNY !!


And went to play in CN ran ^^
The above screenshot is the skill of power SM of level 177
Hmm... i call it explosive wave haha~
GOOD NIGHT

...what to say?

MY ranonline sale did quite well, im glad to see that.
Back to office and off to shipyard at 9 am.

For this week, should be roughly all the same haha~
so i'll end here and nothing special thing/event had happen.
Good night to everyone.

Valentine Day?

In fact, i can say i don't celebrate valentine day.
So i don't have much to say, same as usual working days.

But i did thought of buying a flower... i even asked around while working...
... to find where can buy that specified flower haha.
After working, Peter (Boss's friend) drove me to a nearby shop near...
... Jurong West, where i think of ...
He went there to buy his HP earphone from his friend.
Actually from there i even want to ask him drove me around...
... to look for that flower and then sent immediately by person.
But thinking back, what for doing so much where...
... this person don't even bother me at all?
Just a second of thought, my heart went dishearted and back to office.
And went home soon after packing my work for tomorrow.

Haiz, i tried stop to think about it.
im trying hard... now and then...
im struggling...
...

=)

It's Monday... working on Monday always feel so sian ~lol.
That's why it's call Monday blue?
9am ready to move off to the shipyard...
So this week will be at the shipyard all the way till CNY and after CNY.
Maybe for a month haha~
Hmm... finished up for today's scope and call it a day.

Back home to relax ^^ Smile.
Good night.

Zzz...

The last week before CNY is coming...
To me, i don't feel great of the arriving of CNY days... as compare...
... to the olden days, i do feel excited and happy towards CNY.

Somehow i don't have any feel in most of the thing.
Just like lost of my sense of feeling haha~
Take care.

What's today program?

Leveling time?
My friend invited me to join their party hehe.
But still i haven't get a level yet haha~

Back to my sale and prepare for tomorrow work again T_T

Weekend Sale

It's Ranonline day haha...
My shop pass expired tonight T_T
But it's alright as my sale was fine.

My collection of Jiuhun blade had completed.
A total of four which is Ice, Poison, Electricity and Fire =D
i think my inventory is flooding ... full of books haha~
Anyway good stock availability, so i no need worry about my stock.
Keep selling, keep it up of my sale.
Rest well. Good night to all.

Always ...

Same thing goes for today...
...measure measure... check check... look look...
That's all for during the whole morning and noon...

Every night just seem the same.
But same i do, i just give a wish to the stars.
Wish you the best.

Hmm... ancient ship?

Hmm... no blog today because almost the same as yesterday haha~


Just take a picture at the bar room... this ship is built in 1910.. wow... so old.
Almost 100 years old~ but sad to say now this new owner want to change everything.
Im looking at the celling, there are many old stuff instruments and tools.
Well, its stuffy under deck~ and going back office as soon as the time reached 4pm
Arranging all paper in order and .... time to go home !!

Home always the best =D
Relax and Rest well.

Shipyard is cool?

In the MRT... i always stand beside the door.
...but wa piang a young lady just rush in and stick to me (=_=)
"Stick" ahem i mean is ...
Anyway, so paiseh ~
i hardly move too as im leaning on the side.
What to do? Yell at her? Ask her get off me?
lol... i didn't. i just move slightly backward abit.
Luckily her size is small, if not ~ i become flat haha.
Anyway, everytime at working time~ its always so crowded.

Once it's lunch time, he drove me to a canteen.
Many things to eat sia but i choose the same "cai fan" lol...
Nothing much of the day, just keep measuring of this 35m ship.
To me, shipyard is quite cool haha~ because can see many ships =_="
Around 4pm+ its time to go back office...
it's 5pm ~ arrange abit of my paper work and prepare for tomorrow.

Going home and relax with ranonline.
Nothing much also... just open shop and watched TV...
Have an early night, tomorrow got to wake up early again T_T

Work think think, work work think think think think

Is that you whom appear in my dream again? i told myself when im awake.
i can't really remember. it's another weird dream...
... that i could only remember i saved her and i got myself injuries.
What a joke as i told myself again...
i ate my breakfast and went off to work at 7+ am

Once my boss's friend arrived and he drove me to the shipyard.
Everything seems fine as well as the weather.
Thoughts often flew into my mind, telling me...
...must try to walk upright...must eat more...must rest earlier...must...
In fact, i did weight myself ~ my weight increased by 6kg
Actually i don't im having a hunch back.
i never notice it and no one ever told me too.
But now i think im better as your voice always told me to do so while im walking.
Sometime i do paused myself and get to think of ...
Even during at work too. But what to do? i really seems cursed haha.

Well, maybe it's fate again to remember. Once and for all, till my very last breath.
The only one i knew, the only one i remember, no more of it.

It's all start from me, blame my thought, blame myself.

its Monday again... the start of the week, always feel sian.
Don't know why, till now i still feeling lost... haiz.
This week will be going to shipyard all the time... with a boss's friend.
Boss will be rushing his work and all his meetings.
His friend is a funny guy haha~ seem fine to work with.
Back office, once im done with the work for the day over at the shipyard.

After alighting off at a MRT station, walking towards home...
... this feeling is always there, i'll see your shadow.
...which link to many other happenings.
i often look back, but i get disappointed as im dreaming.

Things are hard to predict.
Sometime, you will never know the reason behind it.
Just like me, i remember that moment i just feel like a ball being kicked.
The ball just don't know what had happened too.
And the ball flew and lost its way in an unknown place.
Now & then always living with uncertainties and so im unhappy...
i tried to be happy physically...but mentally and emotionally, i can't.
Because everyday, walking the same route...
... same feel, same thought is always there.
But i know everything is not the same again.
Maybe im ill-fated, so i can't blame anyone.
i could only blame myself.

Just another day ...

A day of ranonline shopping and vending.
Plus misses...
Wishes...

And that's the end of my day, haha~
Be good.
Be happy no matter what you do.
Nothing much more i could say.
Smile.
Take care.
Always...

What to do beside playing ranonline?

Thoughts for you always there, and everyday will happen without failing.
Although you can't see or hear, but somewhere in a corner i'm there.
You no need to reply or response to this blog, is just what i feel.
As for what i know, there is no right or wrong.
Do what you like & try your best out of it.
To be happy is most important.
Life get simplier?
Easier?
Tired.
(Vanish, no more words)

But still, my engine will carry on to wish for you till my very end.
Good day for all.
Good night.. lol.

Never let your girl cry ...

Ah, finally 80% done of my work haha~ take a break, its lunch time.
Reading this old email from my friend, i always felt sad that how could such a thing happen.
Never be allow in my life, or maybe i should say i don't even need to think.
Because there won't be a girl will cry because of me...
Maybe there is... when the day i left the world or maybe not.

If ever a girl cries in front of you, it means that she can't take it anymore.
If you take her hand, she would stay with you for the rest of your life.
If you let her go, she could never go back to being herself anymore.
A girl won't cry easily except in front of the person whom she loves the most, she becomes weak.
A girl won't cry easily only when she love you the most, she put down her ego.

If a girl cries because of you, please hold her hands firmly.
She's the one who would stay with you for the rest of your life.
If a girl cries because of you, please don't give her up.
Maybe because of your decision, you might ruin her life.
When she cries right in front of you because of you,
Look into her eyes, can you see & feel the pain & hurt she's feeling?
Think. Which other girl will have cried with pure sincerity, infront of you and because of you?
She cries not because she is weak, She cries not because she want sympathy or pity,
She cries because crying silently is no longer possible, the pain, hurt & agony...
... have become too big a burden to be kept inside.

If a girl cries her heart out to you,
And all because of you, its time to look back on what you have done.
Only you will know the answer to it. Do consider it, Cause one day, it may be too late for regrets,
It may be too late to say "im sorry".
Maybe in your life, she's the only one that truly loves you the most.

Now and then, i felt lonely and it's getting stronger each day, but at this moment...
... i will take a peek at the messages you sent me, your smiling face just appeared in my mind.
Everything seems back to normal, i smile... i hope, i pray, i wish for you the best.

The Engineer Story (Do u need a Tissue?)

Her husband is an Engineer by profession, she loves him for his steady nature,
and she loves the warm feeling when she leans against his broad shoulders.
Three years of courtship and now, two years into marriage,
she would have to admit, that she's getting tired of it.

The reasons of her loving him before has now transformed into the cause of all her restlessness.
She is a sentimental woman and extremely sensitive when it comes to a relationship
and her feelings, she yearns for the romantic moments, like a little girl yearning for candy.
Her husband is her complete opposite, his lack of sensitivity,
& the inability of bringing romantic moments into their marriage has disheartened her about love.

One day, she finally decided to tell him her decision, that she wanted a divorce.
"Why?" he asked, shocked. "I'm tired, there are no reasons for everything in the world!" She answered.
He kept silent the whole night, seems to be in deep thought with a lighted cigarette at all times.
Her feeling of disappointment only increased,
here was a man who can't even express his predicament, what else can she hope from him?
And finally he asked her:" What can I do to change your mind?"
Somebody said it right, it's hard to change a person's personality, and she guessed.
She have started losing faith in him. Looking deep into his eyes, she slowly answered:
"Here is the question, if you can answer and convince my heart, I will change my mind,
Let's say, I want a flower located on the face of a mountain cliff,
and we both are sure that picking the flower will cause your death, will you do it for me?"
He said: " I will give you your answer tomorrow...." Her hopes just sank by listening to his response.
She woke up the next morning to find him gone,
and saw a piece of paper with his scratchy handwriting, underneath a milk glass,
on the dining table near the front door, that goes....

My dear,
"I would not pick that flower for you, but please allow me to explain the reasons further.."
This first line was already breaking her heart. She continued reading.....

1. When you use the computer you always mess up the Software programs,
& you cry in front of the screen, I have to save my fingers so that I can help to restore the programs.

2. You always leave the house keys behind,
thus I have to save my legs to rush home to open the door for you.

3. You love traveling but always lose your way in a new city,
I have to save my eyes to show you the way.

4. You always have the cramps whenever your "good friend" approaches every month,
I have to save my palms so that I can calm the cramps in your Tummy.

5. You like to stay indoors, and I worry that you will be infected by infantile autism.
I have to save my mouth to tell you jokes and stories to cure your boredom.

6. You always stare at the computer, and that will do nothing good for your eyes,
I have to save my eyes so that when we grow old, I can help to clip your nails,
and help to remove those annoying white hairs.

7. So I can also hold your hand while strolling down the beach, as you enjoy the sunshine and the
beautiful sand... and tell you the color of flowers, just like the color of the glow on your young face...

Thus, my dear, unless i'm sure that there is someone who loves you more than I do...
I could not pick that flower yet, and die..
Her tears fell on the letter, and blurred the ink of his handwriting and as she goes on reading...
"Now, that you have finished reading my answer, if you are satisfied,
please open the front door for I'm standing outside bringing your favorite bread and fresh milk..."
She rushes to pull open the door and saw his anxious face, clutching tightly with his hands,
the milk bottle and loaf of bread....

Now she's very sure that no one will ever love her as much as he does...