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Every now and then, i have nothing much to say about.
You could say i am a boring man, leading a boring life.
That's me.

At times, i really wish i could gave all my times to girlfriend.
Giving her all my best, just to see her smile.
OOPS, i am dreaming again.

Do i regret that i never try to court a girl when i am at the age of 13-18?
Hmm, i can say most likely not. If it's yours, it will be yours.
Court is not my style. i believe in fate.
But not mean i am hoping for every now and then.
Do what i suppose to do. Tried to satisfy people at work or other any places.
Tried to make her more happy/relief whenever i can.
i am not tired to of doing it, even everyday repeating it.
But one of your word strikes me, my world collapsed.
i don't even dare to think for it now and then...
Feeling so terrible for almost a year and more to go...
What else can i think of to make myself better?
Play ranonline? maybe or ...