Sigh* My left elbow has a 50 cent size patch since 2005... During IAP times, it looks fine and seems to disappear. Somehow it's back again... And so my mum pushed me to the Chinese medical centre in Yishun Central. Hmm... a new place to me, the area is quite big that can cycle around XD When it's my turn, the doctor talked non- stop... sigh* Anyway, listen more no harm~ just take notes. The medicine is so "less expensive" comparing to western medicine. And went back home straight as there are nothing to shop. i had compile and printed some lyrics yesterday in the morning, preparing KTV session as i might grab the mic anytime and sing with it. To me, sing can also makes me relax.. another different relaxation haha*
A Saturday noon, what can i do? At this age, i should be accompany my girl at the beach.
(*Maybe not all people choose to go ... beach)
The show "Measure of men", Norman said something is quite true as i thought. i started to feel less envy in couples and feeling better as a single.
Nevertheless, always smile and stay happy.
It's been so many years after my schoolings. Everything seems so fine except few incidents in Pri. school. i remember a Malay guy bullied me as i looks short and small size haha* He always hook my neck with his arms from behind as i couldn't move i just let it be... and i started becoming naughty during Primary one while my results were very good. Why i know? Because my mum showed my past good results when my results were going down in Primary four.
During YCKSS, nothing special~ but i did admire a girl at that time. i was so happy because we had in the same class for 5 years. i admire for 5 years without any actions. Why 5 years, still admire in the end? i think im short and ugly, feeling inferior. She is tall at about 168-170 cm ... i remember i was about 160 cm then. So i always try to help her wherever i can. During the Secondary times, i was so innocent knowing nothing about relationship. But i remember i wrote about her in my weekly journal which need to submit. My form teacher always come to me smiling, giving me hints and tips. But as i know, i just can't do it. Normal days just passed peacefully and playing too much~ i failed 'O' Level. i didn't even retake because i think it's unnecessary and i am lazy too...
And so i went into my fifth choice of ITE courses in Yishun. Books were boring but practicals were fun as i tried to comfort myself. Somehow i wanted to do better to hear more good words from teacher haha* Almost every practical i did quite well and theories are good~ Adding up practical and theories made me fine and makes me to do better. A course that i don't have any interest in it should be getting poor results but strange was i did well. During that time, my mind was ... "Since Im already here, why not try my best to understand and to do well since it's lesser subject comparing to Sec. school"
In fact i didn't do my best as i still like to play haha*BUT i never neglected any of my work~ i remember i used bitmap to draw wire diagram. Most teacher likes my drawing as it was neat and tidy to understand. A strange kind of feeling like happy plus great makes me wanting to further better. i also learned some basic AutoCAD and i was the top in class. My AutoCAD teacher often guided and told me, it will be good for work next time... i just wonder what next time? im here to pass time haha, my mind said silently. Thinking back, ITE times just passed swiftly again and im surprised to get out with a C.O.M. A practical teacher, Mr Toh also advised me to go straight to polytechnic instead to ITC. i never think of going poly when i am in ITE. Now thinking back, life in ITE was really simple compare to Sec. school if you willing to try slightly harder. After ITE, i couldn't go straight to ITC or polys~ i had to go NS immediately.
The first day to NS, i wondered "Cham, im thin~ will i become skeleton after ORD?"
Just lol thinking back, doing whatever needed as they said. Everything will be fine and soon it's ORD. i had prepared registering into NYP because it's near haha* Before ORD, i still took the maths book they gave to study and i found out that i totally don't know. The gap from E-maths and A-maths are too far as i compare.
i felt bad as i failed E-maths and had to cope A-maths in NYP. To be truthful, the first few months in NYP, im in great fear. In the end i still managed to overcome it. Asking myself to study first and asking myself why and how. Looks stupid but its important where one mind starting and trying to figure things out and accumulating questions. i tried to find people who knows or understand and then hear from them. From there, i tried to understand and also practise made me understand more into it. I remember i felt very happy when i started to understand more. More modules understood, less to memorise or troubles when examination comes and that's how i thinks during that time.
Bu zhi bu jue, NYP had come to an end. My post had come to an end too. Good night.