Getting more and more worse...

i tried making myself tired, thought will have no millisecond to have a thought for you...
but i still dreamt of you on 14, 15, 16 Nov 2008 ~ 14 and 15 was a bad one, 16 Nov was a gentle one ... how i wish its carry on till the very end ... (sigh, when will all this stop?)
Felt like an electricity flowing non stop, until something hit me very hard to stop the flow?

Tonight will i have another dream of you? i always hope not. But ... i can't control dreams.
Mouth says stop dreaming of you, will it help?
Maybe i need to learn meditation, i want to control what i think, not the think control my mind.

Every night i just doze off or even day time, i don't even know what time i fell asleep. Worst is, there is no signal for sleepy, just knock out... thinking of it quite scary. Seems like getting serious, some people buried themselves with work or with food. i buried myself in game more than before, whack everything in sight to release all anger i had in the day. Felt like drinking and get myself drunk, but i told to myself i will never touch beer haha*
And i know getting drunk is also useless.

i felt so helplessly, despite i always look happy and nothing happened.
But till now, its already almost four years.
People say time will fade everything, but time will also accumulate everything.

So how? Anybody can tell me a way to get out of this situation?

The dream of ANGER

This time round... you were still in the dream again.
This dream shown clearly of my well-being, my kindness to people, but always end up getting back stab. Actually i don't mind, as long you are getting improvements and progressive ~ it's all worth.

At the very final moment where to be convicted, i finally release the anger within me.
You given me a death penalty, until now i don't even know why.
i felt i am expanding, like the incredible hulk ~ sound hilarious but its' so true that what i remembered.

With my shield and sword, i held my sword with pride and shield with loyalty...
i clashed both item to create a storm, that caused heavy surrounding damages to everywhere~ Within me, i felt so sorry for the innocent. But that moment onwards, i can't be myself before anymore. Just like a grenade, already exploded ~ cannot be back to its origin anymore.
Sound scary?

But i wonder is it always being good, people will take advantage of you?
Maybe i become like him, must be fierce plus full mouth of foul language~ that's what you prefer? Hmm... anyway, felt better after saying all the rubbish haha*

But don't worry i will never explode in real life lol*

Another bad dream @@

Another bad dream, almost get killed by you... in a big dark mansion.
... full of weird things and undead moving around. At a stormy night, cracking doors, shattering windows, i tried all my ways to run from you.

Am i in the world of tomb raider? or in the past i owe you once? I think so.

The most happiest days are during those days, not to mention which days but i know you know.
The worst days are ...

Best given by you, worst also given by you.
i felt like a kid that you had given me a stick of sweet nice looking yummy candy for the moment of happiness. After you had seen my happiness, you just took away the candy and smash it infront of me.

But i never blamed you, since i chose it, my friend.
Fate just bring unknown together to become known.

You are always still my lovely friend ~ Cheers*

So many dreams, But not my Dreams of goal, is Dream of fear...

What a dream... even i tried to sleep lesser, means lesser chance, shorter chance of dreams?

Not really, even i slept at 5.30am and woke up at 6.50am, just about an hour plus...
i wonder is this the 300th or 400th dreamt? But really almost every week, 4 times of it =_=
Thinking back, sounds hilarious or unbelievable.
One year equal 365 days, having like 100 times and this is the 4th year since we never met...

i still dreamt of you and remember some scene of it.
You don't really like schooling, but you went just for the sake of it, your friends or your parents.
Sometime you don't feel like it, you just skipped the class and went shopping.

i managed to plan to go with you, drag you to school ~
And tried many ways to keep you busy and stay in school.
Your decision is like flying about, like a balloon without a string.
i held tightly to it, and tried to bring you back where you should be.

Don't really know what's going on lol...
Later a girl went suicide because of your indecisive decision...
And you almost went crazy, almost follow her step ~ luckily i managed to pull you back in time...
This is where it ended because the alarm had rang...
i still felt alittle tense after the dream, although was a dream~ nothing bad happened to you.
Phew and the day starts.

My Sister's ROM

Finally, 5th ICT ended ~
Boring of doing the same thing again...
... but just treat its like a chalet for us to talk about how's life ~
Some are married, some already have few kids, some already ...
Every year ICT, i'm so glad to see everyone is moving on towards something.
Except me, shall i move on too? Or ... ?

Today is my sister's ROM, felt so happy for her.
Finally she met her prince, there she goes.

A Good Friday

All of a sudden~ im back, kicking alive lol* Things around me changes alot, but i'm still the same.

It's a relax day because boss isn't around~ but will still try to finish the job he gave :X
Punching in cabal at the same time~ PUNCHING? Skill training lols*
Well, just click and let it be~ back to my work, almost done :D

Browsing at youtube, seeing got any nice music video to play while doing my work.
Hmm... Zhou Jie Lun, Lin Jun Jie, Zhang Dong Liang, Zhang Shao Han, and some others ~ accidently found a talented girl singing with her guitar :)

Her name is Sharon Sze, keep it up ^^

Draw A House - My Dream House?

Based on your drawing and the 10 answers you gave this is a summary of your personality:
You are sensitive and indecisive at times.
You are a freedom lover and a strong person.
You love your house and family.
You are a gifted artist as well.
Once you have a problem, you need a friend with you.
Your life is always full of changes.
You are very tidy person.
There's nothing wrong with that because you're pretty popular among friends.
When it comes to love, you shut yourself off.
It's difficult to win your heart because you have decided to keep your feelings deep inside.
You see the world as it is, not as you believe it should be.
You added a flower into your drawing.
The flower signifies that you long for love.
It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt.
You don't think much about yourself.

[URL=http://drawahouse.com/houses/show.asp?houseID=569959&houseHash=66df32861080ac7bc91a9b93519149c1][IMG]http://drawahouse.com/houses/2008/1/11/569959_t.gif[/IMG]Click here to view my house[/URL]

Hmm... just went to the site to draw a house, can analysis your pensonality ... quite true haha~
Oh well, its been a year plus, back to update alittle :S
And back to busy with my stuffs, take care all.

You, and you again, i cannot blame anyone but myself.

Dreamt of you again, so clear and i remembered i called your name. i went nearby your area with some friends. And wanted to pay you a visit, the moment i saw you appeared nearby i turned back and walked away.

I'm not afraid of you, just I remembered what you said.
Don't really wish to agitate you anymore with my appearance.
Hope you are as happy as before, not having unknown hatred of me or him with you.
i know its hard for you to adept a new way or to change a brand new memory.

Some memory are so hard to be erase, i understand.
But it will help somehow when you start to accept new life.
New memory begins, and hope the new memories will bring you more laughter.

(Tai Zheng Xiao - Xiang Ni Xiang De Hao Gu Ji.mp3)

Mythwars Online

Oh no, MMOsite admins removes my Mythwars prize~
lol...but one of their rule stated 3-5 days then will remove if never claim.
Just two days nia, i guess writing them an email is a need.
Anyway i had been writing emails to this MMOsite coordinator haha*

Anyway today started playing Mythwars, quite a fine game...

Look simple and cute, that's all for the fun requirements.
Well, adventures starts~!
Sher the Centaur with her pet exploring in a dungeon...hehe*

Life is boring without u, but with me ur life will be boring XD

Aiyo, to claim Mythwars prize~ i must key in server name sia...
Bo bian, must download the game and then claim it =_=
As for ranonline prizes is not a problem claiming it.

Another day of Ran... just a day that i could relax but...
Sigh, i wish you will here... everything will be different.

Result of MMOsite events (me me me...)

Woohoo, i won some credits in the MMOsite in a lucky draw.
At the same time, result of digging treasure contest was released.
i got two top prizes from two online games lolx~
Hmm... not really worth it but fun in participating haha...

Finally can get take a break.
Rest well~ GOOD NIGHT *

Kendo Costume

Veri with beret & kendo costume at TH, looking for party haha~ zzz
Not really fun in MY ran, but is a ideal place to earn $$$ haha where...
... the players are crazy in here.
The more crazy they are, the sale will never die~ haha*

RAN sisters?

Sher & Inno taking a photo at TH, look like sisters?

Sleepy Sleepy Sleep Sleep Soon...

Dig again, playing time and patience daily till the very last day of the event...
... is a good habit practice ~haha*
Since i stepped into the event, this is it~ i will try to get something out of it.

Abit paiseh, that i know it affected my daily work lol...
But after that, i will follow up and complete whatever as i can.
Ready for leveling?